The other day, my mother yelled at me for making eggs and bacon.
She started rambling about this Swine Flu, and how eating bacon is going to be the end of me.
Well mom, the only thing bacon is going to end is the pants I plan of wearing x amount of days from now.
17 cases at the university. 4 of them actually confirmed - my mother worries like the weather changes in one day. rain, sunshine, hail, rain, snow, sunshine, thunderstorms. from midnight to noon its a constant nag.
The favorite threat that gets thrown my way from my father is, "If you don't do ____ you're going to get kicked out" I have heard that for years.....and still the only time I have been kicked out was when my mother told me to find my real parents because she didn't love me anymore. She denies saying that...but there were 3 other people in the kitchen when she screamed it for the whole universe to hear. I am sure my alter ego in another galaxy on another planet is snickering at the words she pierced my heart with.
All it took was bacon to realize that once again - I am unhappy with my surroundings. I break rules to make myself happy, unaware of who I hurt in the process. Does that make me selfish? Or am I just doing the right thing to look out for myself, for my well being?
I hold in my hand more questions than answers, once again.
2 comments:
Aw, I'm so sorry Terace. I pray it doesn't, but if you ever find yourself in that position again I have got three futons in the basement that you are most certainly welcome to if you find you ever need one.
I wish I had some answers for you, but as I see it you just have to do something to bring some happiness to your life again. The people who truly love you will understand no matter what you have to do.
I really don't know what too say Terace, I wish there was a way I could help. Breaking the rules isn't always the answer, and sometimes it does more harm than good. I know how u feel cause I used too feel the same way although My living condition differs in the end. My dad use too do dumb things but never anything physical, too me or my Brother,Although 90% of the people in the US would disagree with me, I'd have too say that w/o my dads love and support for me and my brother I'm not sure where I'd be possibly dead. I have done a lot of things that have weight hard on my dad, But I truly believe this and not too sound insensitive and I know you'll probably hate me for this saying this, But as long as you still have love for them no matter what EVEN, even if they aren't your real parents then all the blame is on them NOT YOU. I think it was wrong for your mother too say what she said, and what your father said, and in the end I'm sure they will see what they did, but don't let it eat you up inside. If you need too leave home then leave home But don't do it out of spite or malice. But I consider you a close friend. If their is anything I can do too help I'd like too. Maybe you need a change of scenery.
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