It's been a while, since I actually took a good look in the mirror.
So much of a while, I can honestly say I do not recognize the girl staring back at me.
Her eyes once brown and gleaming with excitement and adventure now stare back with a glazed-over look.
The smile which once rested on her lips, right below her nose and just above her chin...just gone.
Forever forgotten.
It takes a lot to change a person - but for me, it just took one sentence. Reality never hit so hard and so low. A blow so strong, it could knock down an entire city in the blink of an eye. I just couldn't understand, I didn't know what brought those words out of her mouth. What did I even do to have her say that to me. I behave, I eat my veggies...what could it have been.
Whatever it was, she broke my heart that day...I can't say I can look at either of them the same again...especially not her. I looked up to her, she gave me everything- took me away from a horrible future I could have had...but didn't. What am I supposed to say to her?
Funny as it seems, the week started out with one hell of an adventure. It just didn't have the happiest ending...not at all. It was almost like a happily ever after, with a nasty twist. Almost like I took a bite out of the poisonous apple, and had no Prince Charming there to rescue me. It's a shit life I suppose, and we can't all be that lucky...
For once in my writing career, I am speechless. I feel like I have let so many people down in such a short amount of time...I'm guilty without a crime at hand.
1 comment:
It's hard to sit down and read this not knowing what's going on. It's also hard to see you be so down on yourself. What ever could have happened to you to change your beliefs to something this negative?
I'd like to say more, but honestly I would need to know more. Again with that whole "We never talk" bit. Maybe sometime. I would be happy to hear all about it.
-Omen
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