Current time: 2:39am.
It's nights like these where I wonder what's wrong with me. I used to be such a good sleeper, heavy at that. I could sleep through a war. It's funny how as you grow older you change to the point where you look back and pray to God you used to be like how you were when you were younger...Hell, I pray for that all the time.
I wish I was how I used to be, unnoticed. I know that now- where I am in life that isn't going to happen. I'm starting to realize things that I didn't realize before. I'm cutting people out of my life that I can't benefit from anymore. I'm starting to surround people who I know will be going somewhere in life. Sounds mean maybe...or maybe not. Its my crowd- people who are going places.
I'm just tired of losing people in my life, so I'm taking the higher ground. I'm doing this to prevent myself from getting hurt, smart move on my part...I'm tired of getting hurt too. It's so bad when I say, "I am used to being hurt." It's gotten to the part in a chapter in my life where I can't stand it anymore. I am changing and I have at least accepted that...but the pain- when will I ever be able to accept the pain?
Unanswered questions are my worst enemy.
It's nights like these where I wonder what's wrong with me. I used to be such a good sleeper, heavy at that. I could sleep through a war. It's funny how as you grow older you change to the point where you look back and pray to God you used to be like how you were when you were younger...Hell, I pray for that all the time.
I wish I was how I used to be, unnoticed. I know that now- where I am in life that isn't going to happen. I'm starting to realize things that I didn't realize before. I'm cutting people out of my life that I can't benefit from anymore. I'm starting to surround people who I know will be going somewhere in life. Sounds mean maybe...or maybe not. Its my crowd- people who are going places.
I'm just tired of losing people in my life, so I'm taking the higher ground. I'm doing this to prevent myself from getting hurt, smart move on my part...I'm tired of getting hurt too. It's so bad when I say, "I am used to being hurt." It's gotten to the part in a chapter in my life where I can't stand it anymore. I am changing and I have at least accepted that...but the pain- when will I ever be able to accept the pain?
Unanswered questions are my worst enemy.
1 comment:
I loved it. <3
you are an amazing writer. i hope you know that. =]
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